It Comes in the Still

It comes in the still. The overwhelming realization that He was there in the chaos.The chaos of getting two kids to school with two matching shoes--the Hello Kitty ones with the pink bows-- The smoke filled kitchen that smells because I burnt the eggs while trying to pack lunches of grapes and cheese and peanut …

My hands

My handstouch hiscalloused, dry, icy ones, eyes peering past me. I can see,for just a moment, into his soul, but more sointo mine.  Dirty and dark. I had wantedcoffee and a candy bar. Money I had setaside. Do I know sacrifice?Here is your paper. It reads"How to Handle having HIV." I toss it on the floorboard,this …