On preparing to be a parent [and the things we just can’t prepare for]

I am less than 3 weeks away from our due date. This amount of time feels both super close and terribly far away. Both exciting and terrifying. Baby bird [who is a boy--for those of you who only follow the blog] is kicking and moving and our midwife keeps calling him a little peanut because …

On making life decisions in marriage [and how God always has what’s best for both of you]

I buried myself in the couch cushions, listening to the rain outside the window. A grimace on my face, I wiped tears from my cheeks and stared out at the gray, dark sky. At least it isn’t snowing. Sticking my feet further in to the crease of the couch cushions, I reached down and pulled …

Wild and Free and a whole lot of selfish: Reflections on what it means to be a free spirit

The palm of her hand lay flat against the cream, granite countertop, smudges of toothpaste and puddles of water surrounding her small fingers. Beneath the very tip of her nails were remnants of dirt left over from an earlier outdoor adventure. I stood, lurking in the doorway. Large, brown eyes looked up at me and …

It Comes in the Still

It comes in the still. The overwhelming realization that He was there in the chaos.The chaos of getting two kids to school with two matching shoes--the Hello Kitty ones with the pink bows-- The smoke filled kitchen that smells because I burnt the eggs while trying to pack lunches of grapes and cheese and peanut …

My hands

My handstouch hiscalloused, dry, icy ones, eyes peering past me. I can see,for just a moment, into his soul, but more sointo mine.  Dirty and dark. I had wantedcoffee and a candy bar. Money I had setaside. Do I know sacrifice?Here is your paper. It reads"How to Handle having HIV." I toss it on the floorboard,this …